I’m realizing there’s a stark difference between how I am and what I think about between weekends and weekdays. I already knew this as soon as I started my first job out of college, and I’ve given this some thought before, but this time it is something more real because this distinction is something I willingly create.
It used to be that I wanted to make my “weekday self” different from my weekend self because I thought it was the way I would succeed at work. I had to be a certain kind of person at work; I have to do and say the perfect things all the time, and there was a lot of pressure. These days, while I still know that I have to be a certain kind of person at work, the person I think I have to be doesn’t have a superficial basis. What I have to be is a leader, be responsible and accountable, and do good work. Whether I say the perfect things is irrelevant, as long as I explain things well and show my skills through actions, then I’m golden.
Now, even if I’m on my weekday self most of the week, my “weekend self” is more important to me – this is the self that tells me what my heart truly desires, and what kind of person I want to become (compared to what kind of professional I want to be at work with my weekday self). The more I empower this weekend self, the better I feel. The more I think I’m contributing to the world, and exercising my values, the more my existence feels natural.